the day will come...
Saturday, July 31, 2004
the day will come when you will leave me like everybody else.
i just realised that my greatest fear is you leaving me.
and maybe i won't bounce back.
like what i kept on telling myself.
i cant.
i dont know wat else to say.
--insignificant lies--
10:09 pm
mardi gras
i wanna tell u guys all about mardi gras.
but i think i shall just keep it to myself.
its really nice.
really really nice..
and u get to see men kissing.
n girls kissing.
hot stuff.
and natalie really rocked.
cant believe i studied drama under her.
i could never be as good as her.
her full name is natalie hennedige.
cool girl. :D
and kumar n hossan leong kissing..superb..
cant get it anywhere..
heee....
--insignificant lies--
9:11 pm
boo again.
hahahaha... im going mad...mad mad... mad...
--insignificant lies--
12:55 am
woman's worth.
boo.
because im worth it.
--insignificant lies--
12:54 am
toot
Friday, July 30, 2004
damn im pissed.
just took a shower n im still pissed.
its like i want to scream FUCK!
i'm really angry.
maybe not specifically at one person.
but im just angry at the whole situation.
it doenst mean anything if i go alone..
or go with someone else.
what the shit.
grr.
grr.
darn fuck it la..
--insignificant lies--
1:49 pm
*to be with you forever...*
Thursday, July 29, 2004
hey wassup.
some loaddown!!!
i went on impulsive shopping yest.
god i should be kept in chains.
im a shopping menace.
i ended up buying things which are so far off my list of things to buy this month.
well that's me for you.
im ferri.
im a compulsive impulsive obsessive..
SHOPPER!!!
ok..in case you are wondering...
i bought...
a) one roxy pencil box (black with roxy words in white n pink)
b) one roxy wallet (black with roxy words in white n hot pink)
im obsessed with black white and pink now!!
its such horny colours. ;)
hehe..in house joke.
anyways...here's the story...
after sch. decided go town.
intention: to eat pie at bK n read bio notes.
came to town.
went to wisma isetan to see possible gifts for mom.
went taka.
tot of going lib.
lib was full.
decided to follow initial plan n go to bk at liat towers.
saw shafilah at bk...(weird moment)
sat at bk..
read notes.
thought came to my mind....u need to inspire yourself. buy pencilbox.
went to surfbabe at wisma.
saw this nice brown n pink ripcurl pencil box.
but somehow i knew there was somethng better out there.
my instincts were right.
went pac plaza n i saw THE pencil box.
which is now MY pencil box.
its like rectangular squarish.
pretty big.
the material is like the discman cover thing.
then when i look look ard some more...
lo n behold..saw the wallet.
almost fainted.
it goes with the pencilbox.
cept the pencilbox the pink is light pink n the wallet the pink is hot pink.
so i spent loads of money.
spend one quarter of my allowance.
as of now i already have spent half of my allowance.
cos i bought stationery after tt...
(new pencil box..new stationery...go figure.)
now..im thinking..mom's present???!!!!!
dead!!!
but on the other hand..no regrets.
i love my new stuff.
im in love now.
with one person.
n two things. ;)
but of course i love the person more la..
--insignificant lies--
6:48 pm
*the kiss of a girl*
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
My Boo Feat. Alicia Keys
by Usher
(Intro)
There’s always that one person who will always have you’re heart
You never see it coming cause you’re blinded from the start
Know that you’re that one for me it’s clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby (you will always be my boo)
(Alicia Keys Rap)
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock
(Usher verse)
Do you remember girl I was the one that gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screamin your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby
(Chorus Usher)
It started when we were younger you were mine (my boo)
Now another brother's taken over but it’s still in you’re eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it’s all right (my boo)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo
(Chorus Alicia Keys)
I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine (my boo)
When I see you from time to time I still feel like (my boo) (that's my baby)
You can see it no matter how I try to hide (my boo) (i can't hide it)
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life
You will always be my boo
(Alicia Keys)
Yes I remember boy cause after we kissed
I can only think about you’re lips
Yes I remember boy the moment I knew
You were the one I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame and people screamin your name
I was there and you were my baby
(Chorus Usher)
It started when we were younger you were mine (my boo) (you were mine)
Now another brother's taken over but it’s still in you’re eyes (my boo) (yes it is)
Even though we use to argue it’s all right (my boo) (it's all right, it's ok)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo
(Chorus Alicia Keys)
I was in love with you when we were younger you were mine (you were my boo) (my boo)
When I see you from time to time I still feel like (my boo)
You can see it no matter how I try to hide (my boo)(it's all right now, it's ok)
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life (what we have is in each other)
You will always be my boo
(Hook Usher & Alicia Keys)
My oh my oh my oh my oh my boo
My oh my oh my oh my oh my boo
(Chorus Usher)
It started when we were younger you were mine (you were mine)(my boo)
Now another brother's taken over but it’s still in you’re eyes (my boo)(you and i)
Even though we use to argue it’s all right (my boo)(it's all right, it's ok)
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo
(Alicia Keys Rap)
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
i really miss my boo now.
hee.
she is sleeping i think.
poor baby.
tired.
today we watched connie n carla.
damn..tt show
ROCKS!!!
its hilarious.
i swear.
"we're women dressed as men dressed as women"
style sia.
its really cool.
darn nice show.
we watched it at yishun.
there were'nt many ppl.
so when we laughed out loud..it was kinda embarassing.
n b kept on covering my mouth.
hee.
am i tt boisterous?
gosh.
i dont like tt.
must be all proper now.
decorum.
dolce est decorum.
woodsworth i think.
i suck at poetry stuff.
now...prose..ah tt one i know.
so peepz...
go watch connie n carla.
n go listen to my boo.
thanks to pali for recommending it to me.
cos im not a radio listener.
n im not a rnb listener either.
but great song y'all.
;)
--insignificant lies--
11:26 pm
big ass. green pants.
Monday, July 26, 2004
im listening to tamil songs.
ideal for dancing n bopping around.
im so not bopping.
i realise that sometimes i talk like a bimbo.
i would like to call it bitchy bimbo.
but i realise its just plain bimbotic.
i use a lot of "so" and "watever".
and bloody.
and god knows wat else.
when i blog also.
i really sound like a major bimbo.
oh yeah..there i used major.
god!
oh damn i said god in a bimbotic word.
don't say god's name in vain damn it!
im really going mad.
i've been trying out mom's pink nail polish which she got.
its nice.
maybelline.
i used it one one hand only..
so kinda feel like two face.
haha..
by the way x-men still rocks.
embedded in my mind still.
so today i never go sch.
notti me.
woke up late.
tired n sick.
im such a weakling.
major weakling.
and been dlding some songs.
which somehow got del.
darn.
and my L word.
thank god i saved some on other folders.
so im busy dlding four of which i lost.
and dlding this torrent.
oh man.
torrents really take long.
but oh well.
dlding tamil movie.
sometimes i wish i was really all indian.
maybe then i'd be really pretty.
like i wish i was my nani.
cos she was pretty when she was young.
now..hmm...
hahaha..
well at least she is tall la.
oh n talked to firdaus yest.
hmm..we are thinking wat to do to faris.
man faris is so gonna die.
he cant mess with the two of us u know.
im doing it for his own good anyways.
dont want him to turn out to be another mat tappered.
i cant handle having so many mat tappered in the family.
pengsan la like tt.
i have this song about mat tappered in my comp.
my fren send one.
nah...read...some parts of the lyrics..damn cool..its a rap song.
mat tappered
mat tappered
di mana engkau?
aku mencari mu di sana sini.
di mana tappered oh tappered.
dah kena sound skarang buah kecot.
oh mat tappered
oh mat tappered.
di mana kau melari?
lagu ini kenakan kau
tapi kau kecot
kau kecot tak nak lawan.
oh k...we pick up the pace...
this song goes out to
all the ppl tappered ppl
who where tappered pants.
tappered ppl...
you don't know what is tappered pants?
ask the apek...
tappered pants is very nice.
suddenly at the bottom very tight.
u know where?
at the calf area there.
i hate those type of ppl.
you know where...
we go for pasar malam
and we ask the apek.
how much is tt?
oh very cheap one.
three for ten dollars.
you choose any one still ten dollars.
bcos pasar mlm very cheap one.
not original.
imitation.
ok apek.
gimme size 32.
gimme plastic bag.
thank you.
i need to go another shop
to go and alter.
look at my pants
look at my pants man..
they look so cool...
no..
from far your leg looks like chopsticks..
and all you minah.
who where tappered.
i don't care.
you where tappered
you still i hate...
cool song eh?
if u want the song ask me.
i send it to u...
--insignificant lies--
2:51 pm
thoughts n expressions.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
so just watched x-men.
today was a completely fruitless day.
cos im really tired from yest's chalet.
yah..yest got my mom's work place chalet.
didnt go for CIP.
didnt go for tuition.
didnt wanna go for chalet either.
but i was like thinking since b got chalet there to..
and i got someone to acc me...why not la..
i was hungry anyways.
so today...woke up late.
to sick to go for tuition.
told pri to continue on without me.
then fell aslp in front of tv while watching mtv ampuh.
never get to watch mtv ampuh from front to back.
wat a waste.
woke up.
mom nagged.
then tried to do work.
but to no avail.
did some calendar stuff..
and then still doing some calendar stuff till now.
damn fruitful.
i blame this on ch 5
for showing x-men.
"And what do they call you? Wheels?", Logan.
--insignificant lies--
9:52 pm
main hoon na
Friday, July 23, 2004
there are still a lot of questions running through my mind.
but that is me.
i know.
i can never seem to stop questionning everything.
today im sick.
got the bugging flu.
n im feeling hot n cold at the same time.
which is a real bugger feeling.
anyways...
i dunno wat i want to write in this entry.
but somehow i am reminded of the past today.
guess this is wat happens when u are sick.
i am feeling nostalgic i suppose.
this weekend there is a lot of work to be done.
but i want to just relax n take it easy.
considering that i am sick.
i am really worried about my studies.
though i might say i dont care..
but i do want to go somewhere.
oh god..
thoughts of miss azlin(now i am able to call her tt) creep in my head.
there are just some things u regret in life.
and a lot of things i did during tt period of time in my life.
i will always regret.
i can't say that she was completely not to be blamed.
but i cant say that she was totally at fault.
its not so much the fact tt we are not close anymore.
its more the symbolism of the broken relationship and the
fake?? or forced relationship tt we have now.
the symbolism of my destructive nature.
my self destructive nature.
how i can misconstrue a fact.
or break someone's heart.
i know that i did hurt her.
i hurt her too much till she couldnt look pass what i said and what i did to forgive me.
that can only mean one thing.
that i was evil.
that i did horrible things.
and i am ashamed of that.
ashamed of what i can do to destroy the one thing i treasured so much.
but one thing i wont regret of tt period in my life.
one thing i always will never regret..
i will never regret those times i spent with her- the real her.
the miss azlin i knew.
the times when she was just herself with me.
the shy arrogant little girl.
the things i learnt from her- humility, compassion, faith.
the things i learnt from having known her- trust, love.
and i would say that she opened up my world.
and has somehow or rather made me who i am today.
thank you.
i will forever be indebted.
you will always be a painful but yet beautiful memory.
and my darling angel.
my baby.
my love.
how do i even begin to describe you?
how do i even begin to describe how beautiful you are?
and how much i love and need you.
i am so blessed.
to have been given such love.
to have received such love.
love that asks for nothing.
love that years nothing.
neverending love.
and i believe baby.
i believe in you n me.
*love can be so painful. and so cruel. so harsh. but the beauty, the swelling of ur heart, the lightness of ur being as if u were floating in space...the natural high, it erases all the bad feelings and makes everything seem alright.
love teaches us to be strong. it teaches us to believe. and it opens up our heart
i will never give up on this love*
--insignificant lies--
9:33 pm
nothing lasts forever
i hurt myself when i say
i don't believe in forever.
i desperately wish i could.
but nothing lasts forever.
everything you do in life,
you do it alone.
you were born alone.
and you will die alone.
i don't know how i will bear lost-
how i will survive monsoons,
storms and blizzards.
grit my teeth?
say your name in prayer?
if you leave me...
i will die.
and i will give up on that dreaded word.
for nothing comes out of it but pain.
twice bitten...
four times shy.
this is how i feel.
raw. uncut. uncesored.
--insignificant lies--
12:53 am
regrets
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
there are times when i just wish
i could fly.
when i could soar
and touch the sky.
and fuck everyone else.
i'll do whatever i want.
if i could sail across oceans
and seas
i won't make a u-turn.
i'd go round the world.
i won't stop.
even when i see what you call-
home.
the roads are never straight.
so why bother following the path.
why trap yourself in dust?
why conquer nothingness?
so hold back.
and let the earth bring you home.
back to where u came from.
ashes to ashes.
dust to dust.
and the glow of sun light,
dreams of eternal youth
all doused by the crimson shades
where do you stand now?
don't bother.
just change paths.
i will.
--insignificant lies--
11:45 pm
feel like being an idiot.
tooot.
--insignificant lies--
11:44 pm
headache
i'm having a bleedin headache.
it's really quite bad.
i feel like sleeping actually.
but i got to like do stuff.
dunno wat stuff now tt i think about it.
by the way screw labels.
acceptance is the key to happiness.
--insignificant lies--
9:08 pm
Saturday, July 17, 2004
fuck all the anger that will not dissipate.
fuck blogger.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck what i'm thinking now.
fuck what i wrote n cancelled.
fuck the things im still thinking now and wont express.
fuck my dreams and hope.
fuck character.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck the unreasonable nature.
fuck the ideas i had in my head.
fuck wat i believed.
fuck what i feel.
fuck the fact that i can't let go.
fuck the fact that i have no power.
fuck the fact that i dont understand.
fuck the fact that my mind is warped.
fuck sensitivity.
fuck me for being sensitive.
fuck the issues in life.
fuck the world.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck tone.
fuck pitch.
fuck voices.
fuck phones.
fuck sms.
fuck the world.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck not understanding me.
fuck me not understanding me.
fuck prayers.
fuck wishes.
fuck love.
fuck the world.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck my screwed head.
fuck all the problems.
fuck discontentment.
fuck demands.
fuck needs.
fuck wants
fuck problems in my head.
fuck problems that exist.
fuck blindness.
fuck what can't be seen.
fuck all fuckers.
fuck all losers.
fuck shit.
fuck it if you feel fucked.
fuck it if you've fucked.
fuck fucking up.
fuck it all.
fuck the world.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck diaries.
fuck feelings.
fuck emotions.
fuck emo songs.
fuck my heart.
fuck my soul.
fuck me upside down.
fuck the loss.
fuck the gain.
fuck stupid people.
fuck laughter.
fuck pride.
fuck pain.
fuck angst.
fuck the world.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck neverending fucks.
fuck loneliness.
fuck disatisfaction.
fuck chocolates.
fuck jealousy.
fuck relationships.
fuck bonds.
fuck terrible things.
fuck ghosts.
fuck monsters.
fuck parents.
fuck the equator.
fuck heat.
fuck sex.
fuck toys.
fuck lies.
fuck miscontrusion.
fuck avoidance.
fuck patience.
fuck it.
fuck dogs.
fuck pigs.
fuck pathological liars.
fuck cocaine.
fuck time.
fuck lack of time.
fuck emptiness.
fuck dependence.
fuck independence.
fuck misuse.
fuck abuse.
fuck self mutilation.
fuck catharsis.
fuck christ.
fuck positions.
fuck expectations.
fuck expectations.
fuck childhood.
fuck influence.
fuck anger.
fuck feelings.
fuck anger.
fuck feelings.
fuck good feelings.
fuck bad feelings.
fuck paradox.
fuck irony.
fuck oxymoron.
fuck deserts.
fuck dessert.
fuck pizza.
fuck oral sex.
fuck tantric sex.
fuck breasts.
fuck pussies.
fuck dicks.
fuck the world.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck i want you to want me.
fuck i'd love you to love me.
fuck burning.
fuck passion.
fuck dreams.
fuck hopes.
fuck me for not knowing.
fuck me for begging.
fuck me for crying.
fuck crying.
fuck not understanding.
fuck not understanding.
fuck dogma.
fuck temptations.
fuck affairs.
fuck dependence.
fuck ugliness.
fuck beauty.
fuck girls.
fuck boys.
fuck bisexuals.
fuck me for being one.
fuck confusion.
fuck confusion.
fuck confusion.
fuck repetition.
fuck emphasis.
fuck my brain.
fuck dying.
fuck feelings of wanting to die.
fuck doggystyle.
fuck love.
fuck love.
fuck appointments.
fuck dates.
fuck anger.
fuck anger.
fuck expresion.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck you.
fuck you.
--insignificant lies--
10:10 pm
My Eyes Burn
by Matchbook Romance
Album : Stories And Alibis
My eyes burn from these tears
You think you'd learn over these years
Good things wont last forever
So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things that I couldnt give to you
And you had it all anyway
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place
Tell me i'm wrong when I say
I cant expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment
I take back everything i've said
You would those words on you lips
As if they meant anything anyway
Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I dont know if its worth me loosing sleep over this
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place
Tell me Im wrong when I say it
I cant expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment
So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasnt there in the first place
when you are controlled by your emotions,
the heart strings, thread-like,
it is frightening.
how easily you succumb to words-
to tones, to pitch.
and words are no longer words.
everything goes into one ear
and goes missing before it leaves the other.
and all you remember is melody and rhythm.
how easily mistaken you are. fooled.
by your own words.
your own lies.
your own fears.
and you run away from everything.
because you are afraid to face understanding.
because you are afraid to deal.
where all the lies
and all the hurt will dissipate.
and what they did to you doesn't affect you anyway.
you believe so much that nothing lasts forever.
that you push away trust and faith.
and everything separates you from love.
for you were made that way.
manufactured from sins, from darkness.
you, sinner.
you, fool.
you sympathise.
but are just a voyeur like any other soul.
soul-less creatures.
who stand by and watch.
what really is the problem.
could you tell me.
you can't can you?
that confused state of your mind.
sordid.
and morbid.
warped.
you could be bi-polar.
do you feel the way you feel?
in other words.
the way you are not.
and what makes you so great.
for fools don't make leaders.
when barbed words slash at your wrists.
you can only watch the blood seep out
messing up the floor
the clean floor.
and words are still words.
nothingness laced with tune.
what words.
what actions.
they all still bite at you.
and you have a problem with everything.
when nothing is the matter.
and you seek for pain.
when the pain already exists.
and you seek for attention.
and when none is given
you sulk.
your tears are envious.
your tears are grudging.
your lies are daggers.
and your soul a crooked path.
don't care if you die.
don't care if everything around you crumbles.
care what is left in your heart.
your broken heart
that has never mended.
and you're stuck in something you never wanted
all along.
all that love worth it for all that pain?
you can't have both can you.
you can't.
and at the end of the day
love's lost.
for your eyes are crossed.
perverted.
and you see things through a prism.
your incoherence is evident.
your tears spat for wrong reasons.
your narcissism is tearing up your soul.
shredding your frail self into pieces.
lies.
all lies.
words are still words.
all lies.
bending the truth.
misconstruding faith.
misconstruding trust.
and you get paranoid all over again.
can't you have faith?
u can't can you?
you are always filled up with envy.
with distrust.
with hatred.
and the one person you love.
you hate.
how beautiful your heart is.
all black.
all green.
all bile.
all worms.
all dead.
--insignificant lies--
9:43 pm
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
hey bloggy..
today was nice.
went for dinner with j, yanie, edd and izz.
and of course...
my baby girl.
j so nice.
open table.
thanks babe.
it was really nice to get together
all four of us.
and plus my baby.
and your baby.
super cool.
we ate a lot of stuff sia.
-tom yam soup
-black pepper chicken
-spicy beancurd
-spicy kang kong
-sweet sour fish
-oyster omelette
-baby squid
did i miss anything out?
like there seemed to be more.
anw,
after we ate.
it was raining.
then we wanted to go town.
we got drenched like shit.
esp me n baby n j.
cos we ran from the orchard mrt bus stop
to the underpass entrance.
me, baby, edd n izz went far east.
edd bought contacts.
then b bought adidas shirt.
then we met up with j n yanie who were at taka.
then j bought for her cousin some my scene car.
and some blouse.
so nice.
b bought her brother hot wheels jet port.
farking nice.
then b bought me a blue ucla shirt with no. 6 on it.
nice.
then we went our separate ways.
and back home.
haiz..miss my foursome already.
and yanie too.
nice time we had.
:)
must do it again yeah..
;)
--insignificant lies--
10:48 pm
it's pretty late.
gonna sleep soon.
dunno wat im doing at this hour?
oh well.
just watched ten things i hate about you.
still gets me how julia stiles can be so like me.
sometimes.
she is more of the extremist me.
maybe i should do wat no one expects of me.
to score well for my a's??
big question.
filza's nick strikes me.
do well or not at all.
marvellous nick.
oh well.
tmr got dinner. hope its a nice one.
but i know it will be.
cos meeting my foursome!!! :D
--insignificant lies--
1:12 am
Sunday, July 11, 2004
hey doll..
ok anyways...
maths sucks.
really sucks.
to the core.
and i shudder the thought of planning for prelims.
im still shuddering.
man.
the journey
is FUCKING long..
--insignificant lies--
5:53 pm
Saturday, July 10, 2004
today was really nice.
went to town with b.
b is too nice to me.
i swear.
we bought lotsa things.
b spent $150 today.
so much rite?
not just on herself.
but on me as well.
she is really pampering me i swear.
we walked all ard town.
and even went to citilink mall.
and MS.
then came back to town n shopped some more.
it was madness.
all in all..this is what we bought.
in order of purchase.
1.one girl skateboardshirt(mine)
2.one von dutch shirt(b's)
3.chitra banerjee bk for $6!!! (mine*this was the only thing i paid for*cruelty*
4.come togther bk for $4!!(b's)
5.one gallaz slipper(b's)
6.3pairs of socks(one mine,2 b's)
7.one ucla jeans jacket in dark blue(b's)
8.one pink n blue surfbay boardshorts(b's)
9.one ucla jeans jacket in light blue(mine)
10.one orange adidas body spray(b's)
b really went mad today.
never see her shop so much.
then keep on asking me to buy things.
she is so sweet la.
pamper me so much.
yest also buy me brown shirt at metro.
love you b.
so so much.
oh n yeah today met khai at
cahaya.
by accident.
wat a nice accidental surprise.
so fun to see her.
and she got a book too.
and dolly mag.
tts wat she was holding when i saw her.
and she was complaining abt the maleness surrounding her.
hilarious.
haha...
love you khai!!
wah..i swear this month..
bought a lot of things.
so far a lot of things sia.
let me lists them.
i love listing.
if u guys dont already know.
1.gallaz shoes
2.blue girl skateshirt
3.red girl skateshirt
4.blue&lightblue boardshorts
5.blue&orange boardshorts
6.brown sahara club shirt
7.book
8.cereal
9.belt
10.mesh thing from tannlines
so nice..hee* happy happy happy!!!
--insignificant lies--
10:43 pm
Thursday, July 08, 2004
*to be with you forever...*
oh god!!
stomach ache.
this is really bad.
it hurts.
haiz.
i just want to crawl up in bed.
but i cant.
cos i got to do bio.
i want to be more hardworking now.
i think its nice that i can answer mani's question.
but im really sad that i soon got to stop bio tuition.
oh well.
its for my maths.
my mom is not rich.
so yeah.
--insignificant lies--
9:32 pm
Sunday, July 04, 2004
hiya bloogy..
wah damn difficult la want to put entry.
grr.
i tried just now.
then this thing timed out or something.
screw blogger.
anw b4 this i was rambling
about tonites activity.
was gonna go town with pali
for more retail therapy BUT
she couldn't make it
cos she had to go meet
her aunt for some dinner thing.
so i was trying to find replacement
but to no avail.
even my baby wasn't free cos she had kenduri.
she could only meet me at night.
but i really wanted to start shopping early.
so...
tried calling khai.
but she got tuition then she said she will call me back later.
but then tried calling other ppl in case.
edd could make it.
but then...her father tak kasi pulak.
haiz..
then i give up.
called baby told her i was gonna go alone.
and i will just meet her later.
baby didnt want me go shopping alone.
so sweet.
but really baby im cool with shopping alone.
i always do tt.
anw after tt khai called.
and by some miracle..she wanted to go shopping at town too!!
haha..so we met at wdlands.
trained down to town.
and we went wisma.
went topshop.
then surfbabe.
at surfbabe,
we were looking at tops.
really nice stussy ones.
50%sale.
hot.
but we didnt buy in the end.
HOWEVER,
we bought gallaz shoes.
its the same kind.
cept mine is white and green
and hers is black and grey.
the coolest part is that we bought it for
FREAKING
25 BUCKS!!!!
gallaz shoes for tt price.
who has heard about tt??
haha..
well we bought the last pairs.
so wat to do.
it was like fate.
after tt our mood to buy other stuff got high.
then it went down the moment we came to mango.
suddenly we had no mood.
then when we went to pac plaza
everything seemed lacklustre somehow.
anw..we went to far east.
wanted to eat but cahaya was packed n smoky.
went BK.
khai ate chicken whopper meal.
and i ate chicken cheesesticks.
rushed to level 1 after drawing out money
and grabbed a belt in like one second flat
cos the shop was closing.
so basically...
stuff on my shopping list is fulfilled.
hee...
so happy!!!
ok but now i must be more careful with what i spend.
got only 90bucks for the rest of the month.
and man..wish sanuse didnt want money.
haiz...
anw after tt went met b at ard 1030pm at al-ameen
at bukit timah.
ate cheeseprata.
and drank root beer.
nice.
sweet.
and i love my baby girl.
hee*
we were wearing the same tshirt just now.
b so sweet.
go buy the girl skateboards tshirt.
same as me.
she also had shoppin spree.
bought three shirts.
tts my girl. hehe...
but haha..i still look hotter then b!!!
and tt's a fact.
hehehe..
--insignificant lies--
12:57 am
Saturday, July 03, 2004
hiya bloggy...
good morning..
haiz..my poor baby girl..
she now got fever. cough.
fever is 38deg!!!
wish i was there.
to make it all better.
but then again
she would probly be
irritated by my constant nagging
asking her to eat her medicine.
baby..pls eat meds.
i've been telling her to gargle salt water.
tts wat my doc tell me.
anw just went on msn.
then irma tells me there is ML meeting.
damN!!!
i sincerely forgot.
god im such a loser.
always so forgetful.
anw tonite i feel like going out.
but my baby is sick
and i dont want to be enjoying while she is sick.
i'll be too worried.
wonder if pali is home yet.
nvm..later ard one i shall call her.
see if she still wants to club tonight.
if she doesnt.
then i guess just ask her if she
wants to shop.
me feels like going mango.
and feel like looking pretty.
which is a rare occasion these days.
cos everyday i feel like being andro-ish.
though i cannot make it la.
haha..
but at least im still cute.
ok..stop the sniggering.
and the smirking.
or the outright guffawing.
damn u ppl!
haha...
anw...got to go now.
want to eat the cereal i bought.
and still i havent cancel the cereal
on my list.
later..
ciaoz.
love my baby!!
--insignificant lies--
9:57 am
hey blog...
im so enjoying my time away from sch.
not doin anything and basically
just having a good time.
the thought of moving into the groove...
its killing me.
anyways i feel like dieting
and saving my money.
so today i bought cereal.
and gonna eat more nuts and fruit from now on.
must learn to live without rice.
if i can go on without eating beef..
im sure i can try to cut down on rice
and be a bit more vegan.
u can do it baby.
which reminds me i want to cancel cereal on my to buy list.
but i cant do tt..
cos me using google to blog.
so yah..just got this tiny little window here.
oh nvm.
anyway..
today fun day...
kei came over.
we watched queen of the damned.
stuart townsend is freaking hot.
but still prefer him in LXG
even though he was the bad guy.
then play with kei's tarot cards.
the girl brought it.
smart girl.
so fun..
n i want mini magic eight ball!!!
then b came over.
and haha...we had a freaky n funny time.
man..
close shave there..
right b? hehehehe..
anyways..nitey nite.. blog..my back hurts.
--insignificant lies--
12:00 am
